Out Of The Blue

Out Of The Blue

Episode 4: The Arrest

The day life as I knew it ended

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Carr Hagerman
Feb 16, 2026
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Journal Entry January 2018

The new year has arrived and an uneasiness clings to me, keeping me off balance. I keep thinking they won’t rest until I’m locked away or they kill me. I can’t breathe.

That’s how I felt in January of 2018. The restraining order I had been given had been successfully dispatched, and nothing else seemed to be coming of it…

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