Out Of The Blue

Out Of The Blue

My Dogs Stopped Me from Killing Myself

A grave, a knife, and the night I said yes to the fight

Mar 18, 2026
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*This post describes my own experience of suicidal thoughts.

A couple of months ago a large gathering of mourners stood in a tight circle around the open mouth of a grave. I could see the backs of the family seated underneath a red funeral tent, surrounded by grieving friends and relatives, all of them looked grim and stuck with pain…

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